I constantly keep telling myself to stop comparing my looks ar actions to others, stop listening to negative comments, simply forget those, who has no wish to stay in my life and let go of those who do, but only drag me down.

But it just doesn't happen.

Yes, I know nothing is overnight, but many years passed and the only thing that changed is that I only became more and more indifferent to other people's problems, their feelings... Why? Simply because many people were indifferent to mine, many deceived me, cheated on me or just left when I needed them the most. And how can you trust anyone, and especially invite someone new into your life, after everything you had to endure with? You know, they say that everyone is different and some of the people remain trustworthy, but they still share the same problem - they are just people. Sure, when I manage to clear my head I tend to experience marvelous things, but most of the time my head feels like a boiling pot. If anyone knows a secret to finding peace within yourself, feel free to share your thoughts with me.

However, it is not only that I became indifferent, I grew stronger and more independent, because that's what you get when trying to do everything on your own, but I am extremely grateful for all of those amazing people I had a chance meeting and even more grateful for those who stayed with me throughout everything.

And for this post, I'd like to thank Sandra Yushka, Public desire, CASEDE and to wonderful makeup artist Egidijus Krocas!


Back to black

31 August 2016 Kaunas, Lithuania


This time, I had pleasure working with another Lithuanian fashion designer - Sandra Yushka. As a designer defines herself: "Sandra Yushka is all about feeling good and expressing yourself. Comfortable, minimalist, feminine and with an eye on classical details in a modern way." All of those qualities express exactly what I stand for in a fashion world. That is why Sandra Yushka dresses are a perfect match for me. However, during a photo shoot I had quite a romantic look going on. Appearing sweet and girly is not exactly my cup of tea, but nevertheless, I believe that trying out something new is always a good idea. See for yourself!

And... Another big news! As some of you may already know from facebook I can finally announce that I got into the University of the arts London. And yes I've wanted this for over eight years now. However cheesy this may sound it turns out that dreams actually do come true, of course, if you work hard enough to achieve them. So stay strong no matter what it is that you're doing and eventually you will get there. Just remember that believing yourself is far from actually achieving your goals.


Shoes: ZARA

Modern touch to minimalism by Sandra Yushka

24 August 2016 Kaunas, Lithuania

So recently I've been working with other two Lithuanian designers "atsikeli ir varai" and erikahoc and I absolutely fell in love with their high quality conceptual designs.

I believe that quality and that great feeling of comfort you get when wearing something, are the two most important things when selecting new items for your wardrobe. And both of these things certainly apply to "atsikeli ir varai" and erikahoc.

Creator of the brand "atsikeli ir varai", Aušra Šeduikytė states that her minimalistic creations are a reflection of what she would love to wear herself and are created for people who goes to sleep late and has to wake up early. I think that it's the main reason why I've found her dresses so comfortable.

erikahoc brand stands for fashion bags, which are made of a water resistant top grain leather. Creations of erikahoc are dedicated for an active woman. These fashion bags are exceptional with their lightness, quality, and aesthetics. That is why I felt so great wearing them.

If you haven't heard of these brands yet, you should definitely check them out!

New collaborations coming soon, so stay tuned.


Bags: erikahoc
Jewelry: UMI jewelry
Photos: Deimante Dubauskaite IDEAphoto

Take a walk in “atsikeli ir varai” & erikahoc

21 August 2016 Kaunas, Lithuania

So here I present my first ever collaboration with a Lithuanian jewelry designer Ula Gurgždienė under a name of UMI jewelry. Ula is a conceptual Jewelry designer and a minimalist like myself, which is why I fell in love with her creations. She is longing for perfection, which according to her can only be found in details. Most of the designs she makes are moderate, but nevertheless, they can say a million words about a person wearing them. Her designs are also very modest, without any unnecessary shiny things on top, which tend to catch all of the attention instead of the design itself. The Northern ascetic style of Ula‘s designs also reflects on her choice of materials, which are: silver, rock crystal and her beloved flint (which reminds of a solid lava).

The ice cold glow of the North, immeasurable fields of the sea... This is what I picture when I see UMI jewelry designs. Hope you‘ll enjoy them too.


Shirt&skirt - ZARA
Jewelry - UMI jewelry

Afternoon with UMI jewelry

17 August 2016 Kaunas, Lithuania

The hardest thing in life is realizing that you are meaningless. You are not exceptional, nor you ever will be. You have no purpose. You are NO ONE.


I‘m a firm believer that your life can be as meaningful as you make it to be. The fact that you are no one still remains, but realizing it can help you be more consistent with what you are doing since you have a limited amount of time on this planet. You don‘t have to prove anyone wrong, cause we are all wrong. No one knows how to do things the right way, but it doesn‘t mean that we have to stop trying. Actually being no one is a beautiful thing. It is a state of mind where are no influences, no lies – just you. A raw reflection of a human being you think you are. Peace of meat which will turn into nothing. It‘s funny when you think about it -  we only have this short lifetime and all we do is that we keep trying to be as good as someone else is, at what they are doing. But why not trying to be the best version of yourself? We see these perfect images of models, of what they are wearing and we are made to believe that we will look as good if we buy those clothes, but what we forget is that our body type might be a little different. However, if everyone knew how to dress according to their body type I believe that every woman would look stunningly beautiful. All we have to do is to stop looking at how good someone else is looking or how well that person is doing with his life and turn to ourselves. For once look in the mirror and say „Yes, I‘m beautiful and I‘m a better person than I was yesterday". Only, this way we will be able to deal with our misfortunes and learn to love our true selves. Rarely do we realize that most of the time we are our worst enemies, not others, but US. We make ourselves believe things which are not true and we limit ourselves, while others achieve great things. Things, which were said to be impossible. But it gets BETTER IN TIME. Time – the most relevant thing in the world (after the love of course). Time, which cannot be described, named, touched or actually felt. We only know it‘s there, but what we actually do is that we only measure it by how fastly our bodies get worn out. But you don‘t have  to fear time. The only thing you have to be afraid of is yourself – your thoughts and actions - two things which truly define your identity.

And now one more summerish look. To be honest, I never wear such bright colors, but since it's still summer, thought that maybe I should give it a shot. 


Dress - ZARA
Photos: Deimantė Dubauskaitė IDEA photo


11 August 2016 Kaunas, Lithuania

I always feel like I have to say something smart or at least it's what everyone expects from me. But I'm tired. I am so damn tired of trying to fulfil somebody else's expectations. To be honest it's impossible to avoid that. But this time, I won't be talking about it.

I love writing. I believe that it's the best platform to express myself in a more meaningful way and that is what I do – I express myself through these short passages and through photographs. Writing has always been a big part of my life and it helped me a lot through various difficult circumstances. I know I can say a lot of stupid things, but my problem is that I rarely ever think before saying, and I never mean to offend anyone, but I always carefully pick what I want to say when writing. Yes, I‘m one of those people. Most of the writers are introverts, but I‘m an incredibly weird exception. Some of us just sit and listen to what others have to say and then write about their experiences, but for me it‘s different. I have to experience everything for myself. Which, most of the times can really hurt, because no matter how many times someone proves me not to trust anyone I go out there and trust myself to the most random people. I know it‘s an awful character trait for anyone to have, but you wouldn‘t believe how many different experiences such situations can bring. And like I said before – I believe in kindness, maybe way too much, but I do.

It‘s funny that I get asked a lot why do I question everything so much. And I always answer the same: „I‘m a writer, that‘s what I do. I question things." Everyone keeps telling me that I would be so much happier if I‘d just let it flow, do not ask or try to figure out why some things work the way they do. But I am happy by doing this. I‘m happy by combining fashion and philosophy.


Dress - ZARA
Watch - Fossil
Photos Žygintas

With my own eyes

6 August 2016 Palanga, Lithuania

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